Chapter 22: It's time to draw

By Isla Skylark -

 My previous post was a heavy one. 


I miss my past self. She was innocent and kind. Not saying that my present self is not. It's just that I have become an "adult" and those things seem a bit removed from my present self. However, I've been assured that I still bare them.


Anyway. I am struggling to move forward. I am honestly betting on my moving and my future self to do things I presently cannot do. I feel like I am locked in a certain mindset and I cannot find a way out. I hope that throwing myself into the deep end will light a fire in my soul to be more than who I currently am.


I want to create things. I want to add to the world. I want to make my dreams come true as I have learned I can. I want to find opportunities and make opportunities. I want to redefine my life and my identity. I have so much of the world in me. I want to explore it all. I want to give myself all the love I have given to others which I had not spent on myself. 


I want to rekindle the bubble in me.


I have so much hope for myself. I am tearing up as I write. Because I have not been kind to myself this past while. I let myself get hurt. I should've been better and done better. 

I am struggling. 

But I will get to where I want to be. My ambition carried me through many dark times. 


I will get there. And I will be more.

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