Chapter 27: Avoiding myself
Lately, I feel like I am in between realities: that which I live in and that which I desire. I want to feel connected to my spiritual self again, but I feel as though my ego keeps pulling me to whatever is in front of me. What am I distracting myself from? What am I avoiding? What do I not want to come to terms with? I guess this is why people reach out to others. This is why you shouldn't face big things alone. For most of June, I have not been social, or not as social as I was in May. At the beginning of June, I started feeling waves of exhaustion and before I knew it, it is one week away from the end of June and then it'll be a couple of weeks before my life changes again. I don't feel ready. I thought I was. I know I just have to do what's in front of me, but at the same time, I need to keep an eye on the bigger picture. A while ago, I wrote a post on change. It seems like this situation I find myself in is calling for me to put those words into practice. I don...