Chapter 23: Where did my audacity go?
Life has demanded change again and I am a willing participant this time. I look forward to what is in store for me, however, I am concerned. I am not the same as I was when my last significant life change happen and I feel wildly unprepared. As much as I want change to happen...no, need change to happen, I feel as though I have been thrust back into the past. I recall when I turned 18. My friends were getting their university acceptance letters and I was waiting for my au pair application to be accepted. It took months before my au pair profile even went online. By the end, nothing came of it. My future plans fell through and I decided to go to university instead. I enjoyed university and a path to carve out my future seemed doable. I achieved some great milestones since. I look back and think about how dreadful it was suddenly to be in charge of my future. I was only 18 and had to make so many life-defining decisions. I barely felt capable when I was 22. And now...